fading into oblivion.

Strong surges of emotions have been hitting me recently. The feeling of detachment from the society, my frens, have been sinking deeply n hitting me quite badly. The sense of injustice have been coursing thru my blood; especially in the festive season. Season of love n get together? Swellz.. i love my Sgts soooo much. =p

Injustice, when others are not contributing even though they are well capable of doing so. Working ur guts out onli for other pple to give u more work, thinking dat u are damn slack. Makes me want to forget my principles, forget my morals, be a bastard, n slack n take the easy path out. But i know i cant; i will be letting down those who stood the same ground as me, letting down myself... i doubt i will ever be able to face myself n do things confidently if i can even betray my guiding lights. Moreover, pain is rewarding, it makes one appreciates life more, n to appraise himself better.

Detachment, when ur life is taken away. When ur weekends are spent in patches of green n brown instead of with ur frens n family. Yeah, offs are given. But for wat? the weekends are oredi gone. I want to go out with frens. But where are they on Mondays? in camps, in school studying, in offices working. Who can i go out with? call them. There is always dat distance in such communication. n lack of communication breeds separation. like a rock in the strong wind, realtionship are eroded slowly. they will be less tempted to ask u out next time. Nothing realli beats meeting up, chilling out, or having a cup of coffee... simple, but quite enuff.

i knoe i will eventually settle all my wandering tots, but somehow, they seem too overbearing for me at this veri point in time. I juz hope this feeling goes away soon... i dun like the man i see int he mirror now.

Sianz.. listening to my favourite Season of Loneliness now. =P