Reflections

Just one more hour plus before I turn 19.
Reflecting upon the events last year.

The veri same time last year, I was in the midst of A levels ( or the preparations? ). The onli thing preoccupying the mind was to get good grades, nothing else matters. My Bdays aren't a great occasion for me, neither did I used to celebrate my own bday. To me, it is just a mark of ur life, to signify a new year in life, and hopefully a refreshing change from watever has been disappointing the previous year.

The A levels was soon over, and after a short period of pure happiness, I was thrown rite into NS. It was a totally change in life, away from books, to the jungles. I learned and experienced, the selfish, irresponsible, bastardess side of humans; yet, i oso witness some of the truest beings and forge some gd frenships, thru the common sufferings, heartbaring talks and sharing sessions, and the helping of each other in need. It was like gaining a totally refreshing insight, no more was i surrounded by books and my immature, frog in the well view of things; instead, i went thru more den i did in my last 17 years of pitiful existence.

I dunno whether my change has been good or not... but it has already been here and i embrace it with open arms. Subsequently, i get posted to my new unit. It was not wat i hoped to be, but at least, i was still optimistic about it. Yes, I have some gd buddies here, but those were far few and between. What most of them demonstrated to me was the type of pple i will dread becoming, and goes against all the values i hold so dear.

But... there is no way out for me... My warrant officer has requested me to stay.. and with such a kind, respected and good superior... i can think of no excuse to abandon him... Sighz.. life still carries on i guess.. they say adversity makes a man stronger... i just hope i become a better man thru all these experiences...

Oh well... i will welcome the new year waiting me... and the first change i will have is to shave of all my hair tomolo. Hopefully, it will give a refreshing outlook and signify good changes to come.

Happy Bday to MEA!